As im sitting here in seat 16F (lucky and blessed enough to get the window seat) on my first flight to Australia, my stomach is churning and my brow is sweating. For the first time in a while, I have felt nerves in my body that did not stem from a gymnastics setting. It is now hitting me that I have no idea what to expect in the weeks ahead. Who am I going to meet? What is the area going to look like? Will my phone work over seas? Am I going to have enough money? Will my identity change? Did I pack the right stuff?
Merely a bundle of questions rambling through my head. On top of it all, I am in take off mode and I did not even get to give my dad a hug goodbye. All of a sudden, feelings of sadness rush through me and I’m thinking, why am I not excited??? Is it too late to just stay back and miss my flight, stay in an environment I know is safe and comfortable. But then I began to remember what my brother told me before I departed for the airport.
“There are known knowns. These are things we know that we know. There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things that we know we don’t know. But there are also unknown unknowns. These are things we don’t know we don’t know.”
I don’t know what lies ahead, so I’m realizing these butterflies in my stomach are a good thing. First of all it shows me I am human and that nerves are a good thing. But secondly, it means that something amazing is about to happen from this adventure.
So here’s to safe travels and getting me through this twenty-five hour flight/journey to Sydney with a recently retired gymnastics body that does not like to sit for longer than an hour at a time!
Oh goodness, wish me luck!